I trust in my own timing ✨
My best from college just had a baby last month and my other best from college is getting married next month. These are two of the best humans in the world and I'm happy for them. At the same time, it feels like everyone is growing up and doing all the things that 30-something year olds are supposed to be doing, on the timeline you're supposed to do these things.
The other place where I feel way behind from a timing perspective is finding a career that feels right. All of the jobs I've had have always felt like I was wearing a suffocating costume that fit horribly. Everyday, I'd come home from work, itching to rip off the suit that constricted every part of my being. It feels like I've spent the last decade trading one ill-filling costume for another, hoping and praying each time that this one would be a little easier, a little more comfortable. Over the past few months, I've found some glimmers of hope in trading and the thought of building my own business. I'm still in the process of figuring out what this means in the short and long-term.
As I mentioned in a previous post, I just finished reading Liz Tran's The Karma of Success and am now in the process of going through the exercises more slowly. I was doing one of her meditations which focuses on visualizing the life you want in, say, five years. As I was imagining this beautiful life in nature surrounded by a loving partner and dog, all of sudden, a feeling of deep relief and gratitude swept over me me as a voice inside of me said: it's not too late. I was crying--overwhelmed with the kindness I spoke to myself and the trust I had deep down that I am letting my life unfold in its own timing.
As I set cross-legged in meditation, I knew that I haven't yet met my person yet because it hasn't been the right time. If I'm honest with myself, I haven't been ready. But that doesn't mean that I missed my timing or I'm on the wrong timeline. Life is unfolding this way so that when the right person comes along, I'll be able to see him and embrace him fully. I haven't yet had this sense of knowing when it comes to career, but I'm choosing to believe that this process is happening to push me towards something truly spectacular.
I believe in my own timing. It's not too late. Good things take time. I am sowing the seeds of a garden. It may take some time for the garden to bloom as beautifully as I imagine but I know that it is coming.